Big Step

Decisions. I have big decisions to make!
I'm so afraid to take a step ahead, to decide on which course to take, which uni to go!
I'm so fickle-minded and I think I might had just wasted my previous uni applications :\

I'm clueless of what/who I wanna be. Which engineering courses to choose?! FML
Been rooting for Chemical Engineering for two years and.. I've lost by interest by now.
Its not that appealing anymore plus I'll be having a tough time to find for job after my degree.
My dream of working at those platforms in the middle of the sea, travelling from one platform to another with helicopter, working for only 2 weeks per month.. blablabla, has just crashed like that when I found out how limited job offers are there for me! Those petrol company have their own freaking scholars! How am I going to compete with them? :\

Then, parents asked me to consider bout Civil Engineering.
 First thing that came to my mind : Those yellow-Phua-Chu-Kang boots!!
Thats the minor part of it... I still have those yellow helmets, goggles and neon coloured vest!
I'll look like one of those those illegal immigrants who swam across the sea just to get a living here on construction sites. Sad.

And.. since I'm giving Civil Eng some thoughts, Architecture came into my mind!
Googled info-s bout it and was really hyped up till I realized that I cant draw a straight line!
Yes, you read that, I cant draw the simplest thing! Even if I am provided with ruler.. the line will still be crooked. Hmm... Look at the Leaning Tower of Pisa.. maybe straight lines doenst matter that much? :P

I cant see myself clicking with any of those courses! :S
Engineering is a big word to me. I'm so afraid that I cant take it :(

After reading this post... I feel like a bimbo D: