WHY

Why them? :(
Both dad and bro were admitted to the hospital today. 


Just when I thought everything is going to be alright, things starting to fall apart again. I'm not fine.

Beautiful Sunday ♥

Its been such a longgg time since I've spent my Sunday at home. I miss spending the day at home, studying :) My comfort zone :D Spent the whole day facing books and went out for dinner with the family to celebrate my cousin's birthday! Kids are growing up so fast these days. I feel old :\

Went flea market with my babe, Vincci, yesterday! We went on the wrong night. There was a car event going on. The crowd was.. Spectacular! Full of la-s and beng-s.. just to see the lala cars. No offence, but I really HATE modified cars. I don't get the point of buying a proton/perodua car and modify it into a wannabe sports car! NO, it doesnt work that way! If you cant afford a sports car, stfu and drive your Proton! D:

Back to flea market, I finally bought the metal wired hairband thinggy! Went there on purpose to get it ;) Yes, I'm so excited bout this, I know I've 'announced' this on Fb :P 

I've cut my hair short! :P

We had Milo McFlurry before going back. Ahhhh, its ORGASMIC! It tasted so goooooood :D

 Vincci is a freak! She finished up that whole thing in.. 5 minutes?! o.O

Single, Mingle, Jingle

I'm starting to get a grip of my life! *jumps around*
I'm starting to adapt to this new single life thinggy. I've been attached to someone since... I was 14? Have been depending on someone for such a long time. Four years with my first and half a year with my second one. Its time to learn how to be independent! :D

I've been hurt by love, cried out uncountable litres of tears, lost faith and trust.. I've made mistakes but I'm not regretting them :) Falling in love with someone is easy but falling out is never an easy one. Climbing up alone this time is definitely tougher than the previous time when I relied on him to be out of it. Having a bunch of great friends around me just made me realized that... Friends are always better than lovers :) They'll never leave you like how you bf/gf does. Alright, maybe they do.. but you'll never feel the same agony.

When two individuals meet, they either become story or history. I've ruined two friendships.. especially the second one. Really missed those times when we're just friends T__T  Damn, no more debate partner and singing mate! Pfffftttt >< People come and go, Sze.. Wait for the right one who stays :D They came for a reason, created memories together, taught you a life lesson... and made you who you are today.


I'm experiencing my life from a whole new different perspective. I feel so new to this 'alone' world! FML I had a really tough time to adapt to this new life at the beginning. I have to do everything by myself! :O Its so tiring =.= ( If you know me well enough, you'll know that I'm actually VERY dependent! D: ) But now.. I've accomplished a lot of things alone! I'm so proud! WOOTS! 

• I did my FIRST reverse parking ALL BY MYSELF! Few months back, I wouldnt even bother to try reverse parking unless my ex is by my side to steer the steering wheel :\
• I drive around all by myself most of the days. No, I'm not proud of this. I HATE DISLIKE DRIVING! I personally thinks that I'm not a driving material :P 
• I make decisions on my own :) Damn proud of this lor! My brain is always in its subconscious state unless I'm studying. I hardly think! Little things like.. Should I go for this or that? Should I do this or that? - My ex will automatically make all these decisions for me. I was mentally retarded :O 
• I manage to sleep without any lullaby or goodnight kiss! Dont give me that look! Lol. When I was with my ex-es, I'll be insomniac if I didnt get to talk to them before sleeping. Dont ask me why :P

This is just the beginning.. The list will be addingggggg! :D
Its been such a long time since I'm feeling so carefree~ I can go out with whoever I want, talk to whoever I wish, flirt with uncountable ones! :P The previous break up really wake me up.. I'm only NINETEEN! Why tie myself down with someone when this is the time that I'm supposed to go out and explore life? ;) Plus, I'm too young for the word 'FOREVER' :) 

Time to grow up, Sze 

A really big thank you to all my friends who were there to comfort me when I was really down. You know who you are :) Wouldn't dare to imagine how would I be if you ppl weren't there for me! *HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSS* Thanks for tolerating my continuous rants and whines and cries! I owe you people a big one! :D  ♥

Rebound! :D

My finals starts next week! Alright, no. Fivemoredaysinprecise! :O

I'm freaking out. So unprepared! :(

Been slacking too much for too longgggggggggg :(

College ends yesterday. I'm feeling so reluctant to leave! 

18months passed by so freaking fast! I can still remember the first day of orientation.. Unknowns everywhere! HAHAHAH :P

But now, we're so blended into each other. So sad that we're going to be apart soon :(

I need to shop so badly! I dont know why plus I dont think that we need a reason to shop :P

I'm dying to get some hair accessories and a vest :D Stupid finals is making shopping in malls impossible..

And this is when online shopping comes in handy!! Oh, the fun of clicking without realizing the shrinking of your savings account D:

Just finish uploaded tonnes of pics in fb. Time to hit the books! *punches fist into the air*

20 days!

Twenty more days to finals! I'm so dead :S

I've been training myself how to sleep on a single bed lately :D
My bed's too full of books and bags.. I'm too lazy to clean up my stuffs. HAHAHA
My room is always a mess after having exams/test coz I'll never be bothered to put back my books and stack them up together. I'll keep on taking things out without putting them back in place *gulps*

 So tidy... till I have to force myself to sleep on the other side of the bed :\

 My supposed to be study table :P

 I need to START cleaning up this mess :S

Eat Pray Love

"I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism."  

— Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

 I can so relate to this minus the plural form of relationship. Lol! 
Hmm.. Alright, I have a very weak spot for mix guys (well, my ex-es explain it all. lol ) ! Dont ask me why. Chinese guys never turn me on. Sigh* I dislike my own race :( Sun-tanned skin tone plus a lil build up body is another melting point! :D Not forgetting, musical instruments such as guitar (normal), piano (still okay), violin (romantic) and drums ( YENG! I CAN DAI ) ! Gosh, I can faint right now. HAHAHAHA Yes, I'm easily attracted to this kind of guys, I mean.. who wouldnt? :P


Shall continue blogging tmw. Time to study! :)

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up ♥

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up 
Now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything...


I baked today!! :D *excited*
Decided to take some time off from grieving studying and clear up the cream cheese and whipping cream in my fridge :P The cream cheese is going to expire in.. a few days' time :\
Went Jusco to get oreo and extra cream cheese ( Right, I ended up buying different brand of cream cheese and the one in my fridge IS till in my fridge nao! Tsk ). Back at home, I was so excited to whip the cream.. and only to realize that that box of cream in my fridge is NOT whipping cream! Its thickened cream :S Being ignorant and stubborn, I started whipping it and it turns into a bowl of coagulated yellowish creamy crap and  milk == Ended up, going out to buy another box of whipping cream! So, I wasted a box of cream and there's still a tube of going-to-expire-cream-cheese in my fridge D:

Oreo cruncher! :P

 Hey, you!

 Whipping that thickened cream! HAHAHAH 

Cheh wahhhhhh! 

 Oreo cheesecake!!

Unfortunately, WE failed! The cake's so stubborn!

 It just wouldn't turn hard! :(

Hyped up!

New layout! :D
Finally something new ♥
Loving the simplicity and the blueeeee :)

Trials just ended! I can breathe in some fresh air now :)
Three freaking weeks till finals.. Gahhhhhh!