The Climb

Life has not been a bed of roses for me lately.

There's moment that I hide under my blanket and cried my eyes out at night.

Heart aches. The worst nightmare ever :(

But, things are getting better now.. :)

Realized that life isnt that easy afterall. Decisions have to be made.

And.. we've gotta be strong to go through it.

We'll both be stong, dont we? :)

Moving on to the other part of my life.. AS!

Two more papers to go! Weeeee! 

10th of June, I'm counting down :D

Wouldnt say I've done my best for this exam. 

Was really careless for every single paper! FML 

Usually I'll only read wrong question, answered the wrong thing...

BUT today, I miraculously FORGOT to answer 2 questions!

Didnt know what is in my mind, didnt flip to the last page of the question booklet..

Ahhhh, I'm awesome like that! D:

Drama queen :P Awwww, I miss cow cow! :(

Randomly found this pic in my sis's folder. Wonders when she became my stalker too? :P

Breakeven

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even.

Her best days will be some of my worst,
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first,
While I'm wide awake, she's no trouble sleeping,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Coz she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces,
(Cuz when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain,
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh.
'Coz you left me with no love, with no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break, no it don't
break, no it don't break even no.

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces,
(One still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces,
(Cuz when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, It don't break even, no

Lost

I'm lost, confused.
What have we become? :(
Cold feet, trembling hands..
Heartaches and tears..
Time, I need you.
How I wish I can sleep all night, dreaming bout us.. and will never wake up to face the reality.
And... its definitely not a good time to face all these while I'm having AS..
Crap!

One week!

One week. Seven days.. Till AS arrives!
Boy oh boy, just imagine the days after AS :D
*jumps in excitement*


List to do after AS :

• SHOPPINGGGG! :))))) I miss the adrenaline rush in buying things. Awww!
• Movies! Ahhh, I miss sitting in the cinema :P
• Cut my hair! I need to trim my fringe. For real, I need side parting.
• Sleep whole day, worrying and thinking bout NOTHING. Woah! 
• Go for makan sessions with Daryl. Ice kacang. Ice kacang. ICE KACANG ♥
• Lose weight. Lose weight. Lose weight. I dunno how but I need to :( And I just realized I've just contradicted my previous activity = =
• BURN my notes. How I wish I can :( 
• Last but not least, celebrate my birthday! Last year as a teenager T___________T

*slaps self* I've got one more month to go through before my AS ends.. Gotta stop dreaming and hit the books now. 

GONE

My red hawt baby is GONE! 

*cries out loud*

No one to blame but myself. I'm that sad *cries out even louder*

Was still awake around 2am yday..

Parents just came back and rushed into the room to ask who drove my car out.

I was like.. HA? *blur*

Mummy said the gate is open and my car is nowhere to be seen. 

Was tensed up like mad.. knocking aunt's and grandparents' door to ask whether they're in the house not.

And.. Everyone is in my hse BUT my car is NOT!

Felt awfully guilty at that very moment..

I left the key in the car. How careless can I be? :(

Couldnt fall sleep yday night.. Cried myself to sleep *emo*

The memories of my car made me cry even more.. 

Yes, I cried not because of my car being stole.. but I miss my car.

My little baby.. Little memories built day by day..

I spent almost 3 hours per day with my baby!! How not to miss it? :(

And, my cow... My keychain.. Writing this makes me wanna cry even more.. 

Awful cracks that I've done to my car. Lousy driver, I know! HAHAHA :(

Those are the pics that I'll MMS to my mum once I hit it :P

My car is full of injuries due to this AWESOME driver! 

I usually get very hyped up whenever I see another Kenari parked beside my car. See see!! :D

Things that I'll be missing dearly ( STUPID THEIF @$#^$&$% ) :

The keychain from the boyf and my COWWWW! Purposely bought another same one to put in boyf's car..

BUT mine is gone now. PFFFTTT! I miss cow cow :(

He even bought his for me to hug when I'm sick two weeks ago.. 

My window deco!! It makes my car so much more easier to recognize! Nehhhhh! I want back my carrrrr! 

Booooooo!

And.. Most of all, I've lost my favourite place to camwhore!

Imagine the longggg journey to Penang everyday. Traffic jams and all.

Whats the best thing to do in the car? 

SNAP SNAP SNAP :)

Found tonnes of my vain pics in my folder while updating this post..

but I couldnt find my car's solo pic! :(

Guess I'll just have to imagine my red baby for the rest of my life...

Sobs* Baby, I miss youuuuuu! 

Anyway, on the brighter side, I'm getting a new car :D

Okay, not exactly a new car.. New secondhand car :X

Coz I need a car asap, so.. this is the fastest way to get a car. Its coming on Friday! 

I need to drive to coll everyday! No one at home will dare to let me drive the Merc ( my driving skills is that awesome! )

Ahhhh, big headache for the next few days. :(

Good news is... This time, its under my name! :P