My Life Would Suck Without You!

Coz we belong together now,
Forever united here somehow,

You got a piece of me,

And honestly

My life would suck without you...

Once I've told him,

Bi, I cant imagine my life without you. * softly, I'm shy

Ha? What?!

I was quite hurt coz I finally gathered up all my courage but he cant hear!!!

I cant imagine my life without you! *blushing hahah! I'm that shy okay.

Dont imagine, I'll never let it happen. *smiles

I literally melted on the spot! Am I that vulnerable in front of him? *pouts

I went damn estatic & high throughout the day , I'm still VERY happy when I'm thinking of it now!

I do believe that this wont last long. We're going apart soon. Studies, education. Emo!

Tears are going to shed, hearts are going to be longing, yet we're still happy to be in each other's life. ;)

Am I seriously in love? [ Sannie even tagged me in FB saying that I'm in love ]

What I know is, being loved and loving somebody is AWESOME! ;)

Random Rants

Even my feet are sunburnt after the beach trip.
Cy, I forgot to apply sun tan oil there! And yes, it hurts till now! =(

Finally, I bought the Ipanema's flip flops and I hate it now. T_______T

I was very excited when I'm in the shop trying on this pair & once I walked out of the shop, I've regretted.

Somehow, I just dont like the design and all now.

And, it costs me alot! =(

Went for Lok Lok with him the other day.

We love hawker food! *shhh... I'm not allowed to say it here!*

Tell me he looked eerie in this pic!!! Haha!

Us.

With his very first present from me on his head. =)

When you're only 14, you'll buy all sorts of nonsense for your bf!

Urmm... Maybe its just me. =X

Aches & Burnt

=)

Indecisive

Tell you what, I've realised that I'm hopelessly very indecisive!

I cant make decisions! I seriously cant, I'm that hopeless.

In the beginning, I've tried to convince myself that I aint that bad.

I can think, I can choose, I can decide...

But through all those random stuffs that had happened...

Ahhh, I gave up. T____T

First and foremost, my ever so important future education is still undecided till now.

Yada, yada, APRIL is reaching soon!! =(

I've decided what course to take BUT I still cant decide where to take it.

Dad have been pestering me bout where I when and where I want to register.

My bad, till now I still cant give him an answer.

And, I've been ignoring mum for her constant nagging for Form6.

Cheers =)

Vincci who just came back from NS also have got herself a new phone!

Where's mine?!

I'm still choosing! T_____T

Urgh. Even Sannie also knows what phone she wishes to buy.

Why is it so hard for me to choose? Tell me, babeh!

Stupid handphone companies launches too many choices.

Thats all I can blame. Hah!

Ahhhh, forget bout all those sorta important decisions for a 18 years old like me.

I can even give up shopping for this! Tell me I'm great! =X

Went QB the other day with him and I grabbed a few tops from F21 and tried them on.

Guess what?

I dont know which top suits me the best and I decided to walk out from the store empty-handed!

Wtf.

My bro and him used to complained alot when they go out with me for supper.

WHY WHY WHY

I would drove around the area for a period of time to decide which food I want to eat.

I can even drove back to the same stall/shop that I've passed several times to buy a cup of water.

And the list goes on and on...

I'm feeling so helpless now.

*pouts*

The only thing I'm very sure of ; I love you!

Somewhere We Can Be Alone...

Finally,
I'm back at home!
Sweetest runaway that shall not be forgotten.
*self-indulgence*

I'm starting to miss you tho'
=)

I'm Getting Married!!!

Yeah, we'll tie the knot soon. ;)

My parents is acting supremely weird lately ; ecspecially my mum!
I do feel that they pay more attention to my love life than my education.

Last week
Dad, Mum, Me

You know ah, if you marry him you have to convert?
Swt. I'm only 17+... Why you so fast think of my marriage?
Yeah la.. Then your name will have Abdullah d!
And when you die, we cant pray for you leh...
Yes, yes, they will pray for you in the mosque.. We cant enter one.
Then you'll be very sad rite? ==
Yeah! I'm not sad because you die, I'm sad because I will lose you even before you die.
Nonsense la both of you!

Look at them!! Great imagination, huh?


Few days ago
Mum, Me

Eh, where he going to study?
I dunno la.. Why?
Ahbo you all go same place study la.. At least he can take care of you.
Swt. I cant take care of myself?
I'm worried of you. At least he is better than you...
I'm big enough.
True also la.. His face also kinda blur type one.. 'Cham' ah both of you.. How la how!
Stop talking bout him la!


The day before yesterday
Mum, me

Take come your old purse. I help you put your stuff into the new one.
No need. I'll do it myself.
But she totally ignored me and invade my purse.
Then then then... She saw our photo sticker and she went estatic.
Wahhh! When you all take these pictures one?
That day la. At Queensbay.
And she got so hyped-up and excitedly showed them to my dad.
You see la.. Your daughter big d.. Take these kind of photos d!

Until now, I dont get the idea why is she so excited.


Yesterday
Mum, me

After study ah, I dont want to work here.. Dont want to be with you! Hahahah!
I know la.. You want to go far far with Naz so that you can marry with him rite?
Ha?! *shocked*
Yeah la! So that you dont need to convert wad.
*stares*

I'm only 18 and they're talking bout marriage to me. ==
Alright, I aint getting married afterall.
My mum is that weird. Lol!

=)

Once again, without fail,
You've carved a smile on my face...

It felt so nice to be near to you..
Hearing your voice,
Resting on your shoulder,
Listening to your heartbeat...
What more can I ask for?

Last but not least,
I'm grateful to have a bunch of friend who actually cared for me ;)
Thanks babes!


Jay, I've found the silver linings between the dark clouds!

Breakdown

I'm feeling better now.
Maybe a lil bit better ;)
Crying over his shoulder...
Tough and solid ; I need it.

Speaking to my HIM, my Father in Heaven,
seriously helped aloooottttttt!
Cried and cried and cried, never ending streams of tears...
All I need is to hear from You, Lord.

I'm waiting...

Lost

I'm lost.
Things just dont seem right.
Either I was wrong or you're right.
Maybe, both of us were wrong....

I'm tired of trying to talk.
I'm tired of acting like I was so so so fine!
I'm tired of everything...
Having the urge of giving up ; this sucks!

Jay : See the silver linings between the dark clouds.
Dylan : There's always a better tmw.
Him : I'm always there for you...

I cant even see clouds in my sky,
I dont even think there's tmw for me,
I seriously need YOU to be by my side...


Exhausted.

Untitled

It was revealed.
I'm aimless.
I didnt know how to react to my results.
I didnt know whether I should be feelin' contented or dwelling over it!
Urgh. Stupid emotions. Forever so complicated.

Needless to say,
Its not up to what I expect.
Screwed up the paper that was not in my-list-of-screwing-up-subjects.

Speechless.

Freaking Out

Pimples finally found their spots to grow on my face.
Urgh.
Eye bags finally found their way to 'decorate' my eyes.
Argh.

I'm having insomnia!! Wtf.
*pulling hair & running around*

What if I screwed up my SPM? What if I didnt score better than my trials? What if I didnt score straight A1's? What if I disappoint my whole family? What if I'm the black sheep? What if I didnt get any scholarship? What if I'm the only one who failed so miserably? What if... What if.. What if... *and the list go on...*

I'm anxious, nervous, frustrated... but, in the other hand, I'm happy that the day has finally arrived. Its so complicated lah... Geram!

On a brighter note :
No hopes, no disappoinments. I'm seriously trying my very best level not to hope too much.
I need to cool and chill down. ;)

Ahhhh... after expressing myself out, I'm feeling much better.
Only one more day to go. I'm glad that the day has come.
Somehow, I do need to accept what it is.
What it is, is what it is, its fated.
I'm suddenly so optimistic rite?
Its a trick to cool myself down. XD

Praying for the best... :)

My Partner In Crime

No, she's not my partner in crime.

She's my loyal laughing/screaming partner!

We LOVE laughing and screaming in the middle of the class.

And, we irritated alot of ppl by this! XD

This particular mad girl decided to pop out to the world on 9th March 1991.

Yes yes yes!!!!

Its her 18th birthday today!!!

She's celebrating in NS and she was excited bout it.

This eerie was reluctant to go NS in the beginning but was having so much fun there now!

Aww... I'm starting to miss this physco..

Its okay la, she's coming back this wed!!

Lalalalalalala~

She always look this serious XD

Its hard to see her face like this.... ;)

And I dont like how I looked here! Lmao!!

Happy Birthday, Vincci!!!!!

=)

Pending

Everything around me is pending.

Yes, pending!

Why is that so?

I do think that its part of my fault. I'm a lil bit too lazy! Hah!

My studies plan is still pending!

Yeah, results are coming out next week and yet I've still got no idea what is waiting for me.

I do regret giving up on the Taylor's Scholarship. Well, maybe a lil bit la..

I've got to repair my lappie!

Mum told me that since Dec and yet its still lying across my bed every night!

I do think that I inherited my lazy genes from my mum! ;)

I'm supposed to choose a hp model that we both like and buy it after CNY!

Its MARCH already!!!!!!! Urgh.

*pulls hair*

I should have been exercising every morning with my mum to lose weight.

I've put on weight due to the supremely long break from scul.

Yet, I'm still sleeping deadly on my bed every morning and rush to the toilet whenever its time for work!

Shoot me, people!

I've bought two new story books the other day when I'm out with him.

Both of the book are still pathetically left alone by the side.

I'm supposed to read it, k? =(

And and and...

Baby's bday is coming soon.

I still got nothing in my mind.

What to buy? What to surprise? What to eat? Where to celebrate?

*cries miserably*

Since everything is not progressing in my life, I do wonder what did I do everyday.

Lol!

There's a big question mark though.

Well, at least I've did something done today.

I've cut my hair!

*clap hands*

=)

Actually, I dont mind being lazy if he's diligent!! XD

Speechless

Am soooo speechless now.
Sometimes, I really do feel that I should not express out my feelings.
Too much to bear, too much to worry.
Some people around me do get offended easily.
Hello? This is how I feel!!

I do consider myself as somebody who is tooooo straight forward.
My bad, I cant hide my feelings. I just cant.
I'll voice out whenever I'm not feeling right, whenever I'm angry at somebody.
People just have to learn to accept the fact that they're not perfect.
So, when somebody voice out, why do you get offended?
Its stupid. Accept your mistake, and make it right!
No point getting angry at that somebody who voice out their opinion.
Blahhhhhh...

I've read a news in Star this week.
A post that I wouldnt agree.
It says : Bloggers should be given rules to follow
What is this?
Blogging is another way to express our feelings.
How can we control our feelings by blogging only good stuff everytime?
Its simply ridiculous.
In my opinion, I dont need anyone's permission to scold somebody that I hate in MY blog!
Pathetically, people just dont understand.
Urgh, just too bad.

I'm seriously outta my mood now.
Mood swings. It happens every month.

Another Legal Baby!

*blow trumpets*

*throws confetti*

Its her bday!!! ;)

Her 18th Birthday!!!!

Happy Birthday, Miss Tew!

Tengiiiiiiiieeeeeeee!!!!!!! ;)

God Bless.

The Rock across Penang!

Rock = Batu

Yeap, we went Batu Feringghi [ who cares bout the spelling ] for a 2 days 1 night stay. Lmao!

The we ; Yours truly, Naz, Jade, Sageena, Big Ma, Sharoon and Putra

Chiuuu... Penang only wad, why so excited?

Bare with us la k? We're just TOO BORED at home! ;)

And, we were very good citizens of Malaysia!

We support 'kao kao' our public transport!

Used ferry to go Penang, Rapid to go B.Ferringhi, Rapid to Gurney Plaza and all.

We just love public transport la...

Went to the jetty around 10 on the first day.

I was so damn excited! Tee-hee!
Checked in at Sri Sayang around noon.
And, oh my, Sri Sayang was renovated! *I'm that out-dated*

Went for lunch at KFC and....

Sharoon and yours truly got INKED!!

Inked? Tattoo-ed? Are you sure?!

Muahahahaha.. No ler, we just did air brush tattoo ==

Waiting impatiently.. Lol

=)

Sharoon ;)

And both of us were supposed to wait for 2 hours before we touch the water.

Too bad, the sea was too tempting!

The first water sports we attacked : Banana Boat!
We negotiated with the 'ahne' there to not let us fall in the sea!

Its our first game la.. Takkan wanna get wet so fast!

But, I think only 4 of us dun wanna get wet coz...

Big ma somehow managed to fell into the sea alone and climbed up by holding on Sageena's life jacket!
And, we didnt even noticed her falling into the sea!
Four of us stared at her surprisingly coz she was so wet when everyone is dry!

Before the game ; Peace to the world!

US! US! US! US! US!

Then, jet ski! Babe was the driver for 10 min and I was the driver for the other 10 min.

Fun, Fun, Fun!!!

I can even hear Sharoon's and Jade's screaming from far!

The gf and the bf!

Jade & Sharoon

Then, they decided to go for parachute!

For some reason, I didnt go for it but I really thanked God for didnt playing it
All of them we badly injured [ ecspecially Sharoon ] after the game.

After that, we soaked ourselves into the water and Jade managed to meditate in it!

*clap hands*

I grabbed a handful of sand and told them : This is sand. ==

Then, I realeased in slowly from my hand : This is a handful of gold... *smirks*

I'm that meaningless! *dont give me that look*

Before going back, we decided to go for another ride of Banana Boat!

This time, we WANT to fall into the sea, babeh!

After falling into the sea, four of us went perfectly mad.

Jade : Eh, faster look! Got jellyfish anot?

Me : I dunno la.. Where we have to go now?

Jade : Swim to the shore la!

Me : Oh okay okay... *blur*

We swam so hard to the shore and when we stood up, the sea level is only up to my knee!!

And we're still planning to swim on! Lmao!!!!!

Jade. Sharoon. Yoongz. Big ma aka Rusheni.

One. Two. Three. Four. Five.

Sajoo. Biggie. Jadey. Goo. Yoongie. Fatty.

The group pic

I'll blog bout the rest of the night and the next day the next time!

Its time to sleep now ;)