Big Step

Decisions. I have big decisions to make!
I'm so afraid to take a step ahead, to decide on which course to take, which uni to go!
I'm so fickle-minded and I think I might had just wasted my previous uni applications :\

I'm clueless of what/who I wanna be. Which engineering courses to choose?! FML
Been rooting for Chemical Engineering for two years and.. I've lost by interest by now.
Its not that appealing anymore plus I'll be having a tough time to find for job after my degree.
My dream of working at those platforms in the middle of the sea, travelling from one platform to another with helicopter, working for only 2 weeks per month.. blablabla, has just crashed like that when I found out how limited job offers are there for me! Those petrol company have their own freaking scholars! How am I going to compete with them? :\

Then, parents asked me to consider bout Civil Engineering.
 First thing that came to my mind : Those yellow-Phua-Chu-Kang boots!!
Thats the minor part of it... I still have those yellow helmets, goggles and neon coloured vest!
I'll look like one of those those illegal immigrants who swam across the sea just to get a living here on construction sites. Sad.

And.. since I'm giving Civil Eng some thoughts, Architecture came into my mind!
Googled info-s bout it and was really hyped up till I realized that I cant draw a straight line!
Yes, you read that, I cant draw the simplest thing! Even if I am provided with ruler.. the line will still be crooked. Hmm... Look at the Leaning Tower of Pisa.. maybe straight lines doenst matter that much? :P

I cant see myself clicking with any of those courses! :S
Engineering is a big word to me. I'm so afraid that I cant take it :(

After reading this post... I feel like a bimbo D:

Breakdown

The wall around my heart is breaking down.. The gates around my tear glands are opening.. I'm not happy. I'm not! I'm in pain :( Damn, the pain just wouldn't go away! Tsk. Ten years later, I'll make sure my babies appreciate their mama more than their papa! Tell me how not to appreciate women who can bleed for a week and did not die from insufficiency of blood? :P Gosh, the hormones are definitely taking a toll on my emotions.

Back To November

I'm so glad you are happy right now

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How's life? Tell me,how you're doing

It has really been for awhile..

You've been good, busier than ever

We've been like the monsoon raining weather

So dark and cold, perfect strangers

Because our last date, that Thursday night

Is still burned in the back of my mind

We watched movie, our thirtieth movie

So this is me realizing my fault

thinking that you will not

let go, holding on till the end...

And I'll go back to November all the time

It turns out we were both falling fast for nothing

Wishing I'd realized what we had when we were friends..

I'll go back to November, change my mind and make it alright

I'll go back to November all the time..

These days, I haven't been sleeping

Staying up, playing back all your sweet deeds

When your birthday passed, and I didnt call...

Then I think about moments, all the beautiful times

How you appeared as the saviour of my life

Midnight calls just to cheer me up

And the surprises, the hoodie, the tablets touched my heart

This is how we started off, and all we have now is goodbye

So this is me realizing my fault

thinking that you will not

let go, holding on till the end...

And I'll go back to November all the time

It turns out we weer both falling fast for nothing

Wishing I'd realized what we had when we were friends..

I'll go back to November, change my mind and make it alright

I'll go back to November all the time..

I miss your tan skin, your big eyes

So good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that November night

The first time you ever watched me sleep

Maybe this is foolish thinking

Probably mindless dreaming

I was silly enough, I swear I was happy

I'd go back in time and change it, but I cant

So all I left to do was to, realize it...

So this is it finally, I am

waking up, facing it

no point turning back and be sad..

And now I'm grateful for you

It turns out you've opened my eyes to the world

Realized how harsh reality are supposed to be...

And I'll go back to November, cherishing everything we had

I'll go back to November, wishing you are once real to me

I'll go back to November all the time..

All the time...

Finally. Finally. Finally I'm alright :)
It was a bittersweet experience and now I'm learning how to cherish it..
Yes, it takes a very long time for me to recover this time.. Dont wanna repeat the same mistake by depending my feelings on others to heal. Imma standing up on my own, yo! :D

Retail therapy plays a very big and important role too! :P

Taylor Swift - Back To December - CMA Awards 2010 HD

Weeeeee~

Finally, I have all the time in the world to dive myself in books!! Woots~ Bought these two from MPH tdy.. Ahhhh, Sophie Kinsella's new book!! Mini Shopaholic! :D I'm in love! :)

Rays

I'm still finding the light at the end of the tunnel. I thought I've found it, I thought I've saw the light rays.. But I was wrong. I'm tired to know that I'm wrong. I'm afraid to take a step forward. I'm afraid that I'll be taking the wrong step again.. I.need.to.stop.thinking!

ONE

One more paper to gooooooooooooo! :D
And I'll have be free.. forever! :P

I've been staying in Penang for the past weeks. I felt so independent! HAHAHAH
I've washed my first sink of plates!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Peeled and sliced potatoes!
Make my own bed everyday! *jumps up and down*

I finally felt like a.. functional girl! HAHAHAHAH :P
Dad got so excited and asked me to stay longer in Penang so that I get to wash toilet too = =

If you know me well enough, you'll know that folding clothes and YoongSze can never be together! Lol
Guess what?!
No, I didnt miraculously knew how to fold my clothes for my stay there. All my dirty clothes are squashed, smashed and thrown into my laundry bag for a week to bring them back to BM to wash.
I've tried to fold. I've tried my best :( But.. they're even messier after being folded. FML
Urm...Why bother to fold when they're going to be washed rite? :\

Folding clothes is such a pain in the ass. I dont know whats wrong with my hands.. they'll never fold clothes neatly what more symmetrically :( I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO FOLD MY CLOTHES! Pfffftttt!
Or... I shall use tonnes of hangers to hang my clothes! :D

WHY

Why them? :(
Both dad and bro were admitted to the hospital today. 


Just when I thought everything is going to be alright, things starting to fall apart again. I'm not fine.

Beautiful Sunday ♥

Its been such a longgg time since I've spent my Sunday at home. I miss spending the day at home, studying :) My comfort zone :D Spent the whole day facing books and went out for dinner with the family to celebrate my cousin's birthday! Kids are growing up so fast these days. I feel old :\

Went flea market with my babe, Vincci, yesterday! We went on the wrong night. There was a car event going on. The crowd was.. Spectacular! Full of la-s and beng-s.. just to see the lala cars. No offence, but I really HATE modified cars. I don't get the point of buying a proton/perodua car and modify it into a wannabe sports car! NO, it doesnt work that way! If you cant afford a sports car, stfu and drive your Proton! D:

Back to flea market, I finally bought the metal wired hairband thinggy! Went there on purpose to get it ;) Yes, I'm so excited bout this, I know I've 'announced' this on Fb :P 

I've cut my hair short! :P

We had Milo McFlurry before going back. Ahhhh, its ORGASMIC! It tasted so goooooood :D

 Vincci is a freak! She finished up that whole thing in.. 5 minutes?! o.O

Single, Mingle, Jingle

I'm starting to get a grip of my life! *jumps around*
I'm starting to adapt to this new single life thinggy. I've been attached to someone since... I was 14? Have been depending on someone for such a long time. Four years with my first and half a year with my second one. Its time to learn how to be independent! :D

I've been hurt by love, cried out uncountable litres of tears, lost faith and trust.. I've made mistakes but I'm not regretting them :) Falling in love with someone is easy but falling out is never an easy one. Climbing up alone this time is definitely tougher than the previous time when I relied on him to be out of it. Having a bunch of great friends around me just made me realized that... Friends are always better than lovers :) They'll never leave you like how you bf/gf does. Alright, maybe they do.. but you'll never feel the same agony.

When two individuals meet, they either become story or history. I've ruined two friendships.. especially the second one. Really missed those times when we're just friends T__T  Damn, no more debate partner and singing mate! Pfffftttt >< People come and go, Sze.. Wait for the right one who stays :D They came for a reason, created memories together, taught you a life lesson... and made you who you are today.


I'm experiencing my life from a whole new different perspective. I feel so new to this 'alone' world! FML I had a really tough time to adapt to this new life at the beginning. I have to do everything by myself! :O Its so tiring =.= ( If you know me well enough, you'll know that I'm actually VERY dependent! D: ) But now.. I've accomplished a lot of things alone! I'm so proud! WOOTS! 

• I did my FIRST reverse parking ALL BY MYSELF! Few months back, I wouldnt even bother to try reverse parking unless my ex is by my side to steer the steering wheel :\
• I drive around all by myself most of the days. No, I'm not proud of this. I HATE DISLIKE DRIVING! I personally thinks that I'm not a driving material :P 
• I make decisions on my own :) Damn proud of this lor! My brain is always in its subconscious state unless I'm studying. I hardly think! Little things like.. Should I go for this or that? Should I do this or that? - My ex will automatically make all these decisions for me. I was mentally retarded :O 
• I manage to sleep without any lullaby or goodnight kiss! Dont give me that look! Lol. When I was with my ex-es, I'll be insomniac if I didnt get to talk to them before sleeping. Dont ask me why :P

This is just the beginning.. The list will be addingggggg! :D
Its been such a long time since I'm feeling so carefree~ I can go out with whoever I want, talk to whoever I wish, flirt with uncountable ones! :P The previous break up really wake me up.. I'm only NINETEEN! Why tie myself down with someone when this is the time that I'm supposed to go out and explore life? ;) Plus, I'm too young for the word 'FOREVER' :) 

Time to grow up, Sze 

A really big thank you to all my friends who were there to comfort me when I was really down. You know who you are :) Wouldn't dare to imagine how would I be if you ppl weren't there for me! *HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSS* Thanks for tolerating my continuous rants and whines and cries! I owe you people a big one! :D  ♥

Rebound! :D

My finals starts next week! Alright, no. Fivemoredaysinprecise! :O

I'm freaking out. So unprepared! :(

Been slacking too much for too longgggggggggg :(

College ends yesterday. I'm feeling so reluctant to leave! 

18months passed by so freaking fast! I can still remember the first day of orientation.. Unknowns everywhere! HAHAHAH :P

But now, we're so blended into each other. So sad that we're going to be apart soon :(

I need to shop so badly! I dont know why plus I dont think that we need a reason to shop :P

I'm dying to get some hair accessories and a vest :D Stupid finals is making shopping in malls impossible..

And this is when online shopping comes in handy!! Oh, the fun of clicking without realizing the shrinking of your savings account D:

Just finish uploaded tonnes of pics in fb. Time to hit the books! *punches fist into the air*

20 days!

Twenty more days to finals! I'm so dead :S

I've been training myself how to sleep on a single bed lately :D
My bed's too full of books and bags.. I'm too lazy to clean up my stuffs. HAHAHA
My room is always a mess after having exams/test coz I'll never be bothered to put back my books and stack them up together. I'll keep on taking things out without putting them back in place *gulps*

 So tidy... till I have to force myself to sleep on the other side of the bed :\

 My supposed to be study table :P

 I need to START cleaning up this mess :S

Eat Pray Love

"I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism."  

— Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

 I can so relate to this minus the plural form of relationship. Lol! 
Hmm.. Alright, I have a very weak spot for mix guys (well, my ex-es explain it all. lol ) ! Dont ask me why. Chinese guys never turn me on. Sigh* I dislike my own race :( Sun-tanned skin tone plus a lil build up body is another melting point! :D Not forgetting, musical instruments such as guitar (normal), piano (still okay), violin (romantic) and drums ( YENG! I CAN DAI ) ! Gosh, I can faint right now. HAHAHAHA Yes, I'm easily attracted to this kind of guys, I mean.. who wouldnt? :P


Shall continue blogging tmw. Time to study! :)

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up ♥

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up 
Now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything...


I baked today!! :D *excited*
Decided to take some time off from grieving studying and clear up the cream cheese and whipping cream in my fridge :P The cream cheese is going to expire in.. a few days' time :\
Went Jusco to get oreo and extra cream cheese ( Right, I ended up buying different brand of cream cheese and the one in my fridge IS till in my fridge nao! Tsk ). Back at home, I was so excited to whip the cream.. and only to realize that that box of cream in my fridge is NOT whipping cream! Its thickened cream :S Being ignorant and stubborn, I started whipping it and it turns into a bowl of coagulated yellowish creamy crap and  milk == Ended up, going out to buy another box of whipping cream! So, I wasted a box of cream and there's still a tube of going-to-expire-cream-cheese in my fridge D:

Oreo cruncher! :P

 Hey, you!

 Whipping that thickened cream! HAHAHAH 

Cheh wahhhhhh! 

 Oreo cheesecake!!

Unfortunately, WE failed! The cake's so stubborn!

 It just wouldn't turn hard! :(

Hyped up!

New layout! :D
Finally something new ♥
Loving the simplicity and the blueeeee :)

Trials just ended! I can breathe in some fresh air now :)
Three freaking weeks till finals.. Gahhhhhh!

Just Kiss and Say Goodbye

Its never easy to say goodbye. Never. Few months back, goodbye seems to be the hardest word for me. I hate saying goodbye to him whenever he sent me home... coz I'll never know when I'll be able to say Hie to him again. I was so afraid.. till I sometimes cry when we'll have to bid goodbye on the phone. 

I had a really longgggggggg day today. My eyes are hurting now :( I'm tired of all these. I'm tired of feeling oh-so-pathetic. I had enough! Mentally tortured. Emotionally abused :S Why am I acting this way? Yoongsze oh Yoongsze, I thought you're fine and alright? Pfffttttt! ><

Do you still love him? NOOOOOOO

Do you still have a wee bit of feelings towards him? NO

Then why the heck did you cried?! Ι DONT KNOW! :(

Fine. I know. I was disappointed. Things that I just found out today... It was heartbreaking. Really heartbreaking. Its confirmed. The nightmare returns :( How can someone who knows you so well will have the heart to hurt you so deep? Coz they dont give a damn bout you anymore.. Rite? 

No, I'm not angry with you. No, I dont hate you. I'm just really really disappointed... Couldn't believe that you're putting me through the same thing again.. You knew how I went through it.. You knew how hard it was for me.. You knew! You knew all these things and you're making me going through the same crap again. T____________________________T 

Le sigh. If and only if tears can wash off memories.. I think I'll be suffering from LONG term memory loss now! HAHAHAHAH :P I'm pretty emotional tdy. I might be dehydrated. Lol

It was like the heavy downpour outside my window.. The only difference was there was a rainbow outside.. but I'm still searching for mine from the inside. Rainbows always appear after the rain. The best will always come after the worst. I'm waiting for the best since I'm going through the worst now :P

...and I thought I was okay. I've never been SO emo for a couple of weeks! I was so proud with my progression and those stupid facts just have to ruin it for me rite? Yer! :( I've gotta learn how to handle powerful facts :)

Blogging does wonders. I'm not seeking for attention by blogging things out! Its just that I'll always feeling better after pouring everything out :) Yes, I still do talk about you to others.. not because I'm still a sick cow waiting for you to come back BUT I find it better to talk to others bout you. Its my way to let it go. 

Smile, baby, smile :')

Trials

Two subjects DOWN! Weeee! :D

Two more papers to go and I'm done for the week. 

Ahhhh, I need some good night sleep and proper rest :)

One more thing, I MUST control my sugar intake :\

I've been taking in too much sweets just to make myself stay awake. Way toooooooo much :O

Love! :)

Thoughts

I've been thinking alot lately. Been through a couple of rough weeks and yeah..
..only to realized that it was only my stubborn-ness which was holding me back.
I didnt know why am I so stubborn to let go and accept that freaking fact till.. I finally know who am I. Yoongsze will always be Yoongsze, that naive girl who trusted every single thing that you've said, that silly one who gave all out just to make sure this wouldnt happen, that ignorant girl who was blinded by everything.

Its so hard to wake up everyday and realize that, hey, I'm alone and try to make myself as busy as I can the whole day just to make sure that I'm tired enough to fall asleep at night. It ridiculously tough to fall asleep without hearing a single thing from you everyday. The fact that we're no longer in each other's life is such a pain in the ass. Its scary how much we've changed, and we're like perfect strangers now. Its even scarier to think of how intertwined our lives used to be, but they're now unzipped and uncoded left with two strands of unfamiliar unrelated lives.

From the very beginning, we knew that we're from both very different world. Its like you're from the North pole and I'm from the South. Both are cold places BUT never meant to join up to be a single place. Somehow, accidents do happen, dont they? :) We met each other at the junction of our road. Walked along the same road together and only to realized that its branching at the end. People says, opposite attracts. Maybe that explains why.


The only thing holding me back is the memories. I've lost you. Not them. Six months together, it may mean nothing to you, not to me. Those memories are so fresh in my mind.. Our first date. Our first movie. Our first picture together. Our first month anniversary celebration. Our first christmas. Our first new year. Our first Valentines and the list goes on and on. At the end of the day, it doesnt matter how long we've been together, its the feelings that kills. Remember our first lil heart to heart confession? How we used to countdown for the day to be officially together? How much we anticipate to meet each other everyday by counting down every second? And I thought I've found my Mr Right. Silly.


Living in my own fairytale totally blinds me off from everything. I'm so ignorant to the surroundings.. even you, I've neglected. When things started to turn ugly, when you gave up on us, when we're no longer US, I'm still holding on.. with the hope that things will be fine eventually. No, I'm not shy of our break up! I didnt want a break up. Period.

When reality creeps in, there's nothing I can do but to accept what done is done. Thats the worst. Words from your friends... which makes me doubt everything between us to the extend that I believe all this while I was living in a lie. How much more can you hide from me? Lies after lies to cover up your previous lies. It left me wondering, who was I with all this while? Blanks. Question marks. People asked, " What happened?" I've got a tough time to answer. No, its not like I'm not aware of what had happened.. its that.. I dont know how to put them in words. You left me speechless. You told others we're off since 5 months ago? I went o.O?? It just made me wonder, why the fuck did you came back after you left and said you want to be more than friends?! A few weeks later, you left AGAIN. Thanks for playing with my feelings. Appreciate much.

I've been thinking whether to blog this out or not. I need a place to express myself. So.. yeah :)
Last month was hell. I've lost my appetite. Insomniac. All I left was a body without a soul. In the beginning, I tried putting on a mask. I pretended that I was really fine. But when I was alone, tears washed my face. Tears rolled down involuntarily.. I've even skipped class and tests. *guilty* Nevertheless, I'm still in the state of denial that he's that bad. Talk about silly :\ Cy and Teng once asked me, " Why am I not angry?" Hmmm... Should I? D: Alright, no. Let bygones be bygones.


Thank God for a supportive family and a bunch of awesome friends around me :D Thanks for tolerating with my whines, rants and emo-ness throughout this period of time. I'm alright now! *winks* Though I still cried while writing this and a lil down at times.. But I'll be fine :) Finals and uni applications is enough to drive me nuts. Pfffftttt! ><


Lesson learnt. Crushes shall always remain as crushes. Not anything more than that ;)
Memories. Thanks for everything :) Honestly, I was really happy for that six months.


My mummy once asked, "In a relationship, you would prefer to be the one being hurt or the one hurting the other?" Guess what I've answered :P

;)

Change!

I need to change my blog's layout. I dont know why.. It just doesnt seem right to me. Lol
Too cute, too girly, too dreamy. D:
Will find the right one to change soon :)


I've been missing from blogsphere since.. I dont remember when.
I've lost my blogging mojo. Thats the reason why I'm missing. Heh!
Hopefully I wont lose it so fast this time :P


Loads of things happened lately. Like, WOAH! :O
And yes, I'm no longer attached. No, its NOT a good thing.
I'm still trying my figure my out.. still trying to adapt to my current life. :\
I wouldn't say I'm not struggling.. but I'm still surviving.

The Climb

Life has not been a bed of roses for me lately.

There's moment that I hide under my blanket and cried my eyes out at night.

Heart aches. The worst nightmare ever :(

But, things are getting better now.. :)

Realized that life isnt that easy afterall. Decisions have to be made.

And.. we've gotta be strong to go through it.

We'll both be stong, dont we? :)

Moving on to the other part of my life.. AS!

Two more papers to go! Weeeee! 

10th of June, I'm counting down :D

Wouldnt say I've done my best for this exam. 

Was really careless for every single paper! FML 

Usually I'll only read wrong question, answered the wrong thing...

BUT today, I miraculously FORGOT to answer 2 questions!

Didnt know what is in my mind, didnt flip to the last page of the question booklet..

Ahhhh, I'm awesome like that! D:

Drama queen :P Awwww, I miss cow cow! :(

Randomly found this pic in my sis's folder. Wonders when she became my stalker too? :P

Breakeven

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even.

Her best days will be some of my worst,
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first,
While I'm wide awake, she's no trouble sleeping,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Coz she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces,
(Cuz when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain,
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh.
'Coz you left me with no love, with no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break, no it don't
break, no it don't break even no.

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces,
(One still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces,
(Cuz when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, It don't break even, no

Lost

I'm lost, confused.
What have we become? :(
Cold feet, trembling hands..
Heartaches and tears..
Time, I need you.
How I wish I can sleep all night, dreaming bout us.. and will never wake up to face the reality.
And... its definitely not a good time to face all these while I'm having AS..
Crap!

One week!

One week. Seven days.. Till AS arrives!
Boy oh boy, just imagine the days after AS :D
*jumps in excitement*


List to do after AS :

• SHOPPINGGGG! :))))) I miss the adrenaline rush in buying things. Awww!
• Movies! Ahhh, I miss sitting in the cinema :P
• Cut my hair! I need to trim my fringe. For real, I need side parting.
• Sleep whole day, worrying and thinking bout NOTHING. Woah! 
• Go for makan sessions with Daryl. Ice kacang. Ice kacang. ICE KACANG ♥
• Lose weight. Lose weight. Lose weight. I dunno how but I need to :( And I just realized I've just contradicted my previous activity = =
• BURN my notes. How I wish I can :( 
• Last but not least, celebrate my birthday! Last year as a teenager T___________T

*slaps self* I've got one more month to go through before my AS ends.. Gotta stop dreaming and hit the books now. 

GONE

My red hawt baby is GONE! 

*cries out loud*

No one to blame but myself. I'm that sad *cries out even louder*

Was still awake around 2am yday..

Parents just came back and rushed into the room to ask who drove my car out.

I was like.. HA? *blur*

Mummy said the gate is open and my car is nowhere to be seen. 

Was tensed up like mad.. knocking aunt's and grandparents' door to ask whether they're in the house not.

And.. Everyone is in my hse BUT my car is NOT!

Felt awfully guilty at that very moment..

I left the key in the car. How careless can I be? :(

Couldnt fall sleep yday night.. Cried myself to sleep *emo*

The memories of my car made me cry even more.. 

Yes, I cried not because of my car being stole.. but I miss my car.

My little baby.. Little memories built day by day..

I spent almost 3 hours per day with my baby!! How not to miss it? :(

And, my cow... My keychain.. Writing this makes me wanna cry even more.. 

Awful cracks that I've done to my car. Lousy driver, I know! HAHAHA :(

Those are the pics that I'll MMS to my mum once I hit it :P

My car is full of injuries due to this AWESOME driver! 

I usually get very hyped up whenever I see another Kenari parked beside my car. See see!! :D

Things that I'll be missing dearly ( STUPID THEIF @$#^$&$% ) :

The keychain from the boyf and my COWWWW! Purposely bought another same one to put in boyf's car..

BUT mine is gone now. PFFFTTT! I miss cow cow :(

He even bought his for me to hug when I'm sick two weeks ago.. 

My window deco!! It makes my car so much more easier to recognize! Nehhhhh! I want back my carrrrr! 

Booooooo!

And.. Most of all, I've lost my favourite place to camwhore!

Imagine the longggg journey to Penang everyday. Traffic jams and all.

Whats the best thing to do in the car? 

SNAP SNAP SNAP :)

Found tonnes of my vain pics in my folder while updating this post..

but I couldnt find my car's solo pic! :(

Guess I'll just have to imagine my red baby for the rest of my life...

Sobs* Baby, I miss youuuuuu! 

Anyway, on the brighter side, I'm getting a new car :D

Okay, not exactly a new car.. New secondhand car :X

Coz I need a car asap, so.. this is the fastest way to get a car. Its coming on Friday! 

I need to drive to coll everyday! No one at home will dare to let me drive the Merc ( my driving skills is that awesome! )

Ahhhh, big headache for the next few days. :(

Good news is... This time, its under my name! :P